I know I shouldn't complain. I know it's extremely selfish and self-centered to complain about something like this.
But I've been holding this for so long now.
Why can't I have a single friend?
I don't know what it is that I do, or what it is that I say, but everyday, I try to be nicer to people around me. I try to do efforts so that I share what I have, so that I care about others.
And yet, every SINGLE TIME
I make a DAMN friend. That fucking idiot falls in love with me. It's very subtle. A few deep conversations. A few times that I needed his help or he needed mine. And then he keeps saying I'm pretty. He keeps inviting me to random activities.
And I feel betrayed. Once more.
I know that when I'll tell this person I'm taken, he'll stop talking to me. Because all along we weren't friends. It was just him trying to grab me.
And now that I'm unreachable.
He is just going to leave me here. With my broken hopes. With the feeling that I thought, just for once, that someone could like me for something else than the hope of dating me.