I'm tired of. I'm tired of fake conversations with coworkers/people at your school. Of them asking "how are you" while clearly knowing they don't give a damn. And the day you open up, they talk behind your back right after. How's the weather this morning? Clearly brighter than your dark ass heart.
I'm tired of pretending to be happy to meet someone (*cough family) i don't give a shit about and know i won't ever meet again. Simply because that person is far from my reality and i know i'm being forced to pretend to care. I'm tired of looking like shit in family meetings and being looked like the outsider simply because i don't fit in their pre-made formula.
I'm tired of people checking in at every single location they go to. Showing off your oh-so-wonderful life or just to remind your own damn self of what you do. I don't need to tag the library, the chess club nor the school just because i want the world to know i.have.put.my.feet.in.there.
I'm tired of people who need to express their love everywhere they go. Posting pictures everyday of their couple kissing, posting status about how they relationship is wonderful and writing messages on each other's wall. Why do you absolutely need our approval for your relationship. Why do you feel good when 20 people like your new relationship status. True love should happen between you and him, not you, him and the world. The looks you share, the insides you have, that is what should matter.
I'm tired of people with a phone who spend their days talking to people far away and ignore those close to them. You don't need people to know what you're doing at every moment. Be with yourself, your mom, your brothers. Leave the fakes and look up at whose with you right now.
I'm tired of people being pissed at me because i don't answer. Are you really angry because i finally live my life?
I'm tired of people trying to understand me or help me. I can't be helped by anyone else than myself. You can't fix a broken leg if the person won't wait for the wounds to heal before jumping off the cliff.
I'm not tired of people complaining. I have never cared. I think complaining is healthy and needed. I think it's a way to express our feelings. When people complain all the time, i just think that's funny. Probably because i complain all the time myself. And i see myself in them. And that makes me laugh because i realize the stupidity of the complains. And the pain. And the feelings. And everything that comes with it. Cause i know i ain't the cheerest, the nicest, the coolest girl. But that doesn't matter, does it. If i was the best, life would be god damn boring. And who am i to look at others and compare. Who are you to judge me for trying to care. I'm just standing here typing these words. A soft song in my ears bumping with the tempo. Water drifting in your glass because of the bass. A feeling. Taking control. Of you. A need to cry. A need to scream. A need to let it out.