Shivers In every inch of my body Shaking In pleasure or from cold
Knowing he is gone For good For now To far off
Knowing you are not the one Nor the two Nor the three
Three little pigs Three little shit
Used to hate the number three
Three sucked Three meant we were alone Three meant i was alone Because i am always alone In the three worlds of the third dimension
Cold fingers Walking on a keyboard I try to heat them but My blood is cold too My brain is cold Ain't any heat in my whole body Only tears and ice
Dehydrated from crying Depressive from dying Delisullional he used to say I love you he used to shout
Summertime sadness Fulltime emptiness My eyes are half opened Too tired to even care
Sleeping 14 hours per night Lost in my dreams and nightmares I am escaping reality by sleeping
It's working fine No one is noticing No one is thinking
They just think i go out with friends Or that i play video game all night They think wrong But i won't tell them Let them believe i'm happy That i'm socially active Let them believe the world around them is going well
And die Rotten up everyday a little more in that bed
10 hours.. 12 hours.. 14 hours.. 16 hours..
Until i can sleep 24 hours Until i can be gone forever At any moment Gone in my world A world where i choose who i see Who i love Who i cherish
A world of happiness Instead of misery
Comatic until i die Lost in this brain of mine Who is making me crazy
I decided to keep a book of the days i cry See if i'm really fucked or if it's in my head I stopped Cuz everyday since that day i cried
I can't concentrate on my papers anymore I do 1hour..cry Then another 10min..
I just watch shows and cry in my bed
Then get my fingers cold Then get my soul cold..
Ma tête va exploser...
So one last time I need to be the one who takes you home One more time I promise after that, I'll let you go