prove your worth

Congratulations,
 
You have won the key to my brain.
You probably didn't think it would be something like this did you?
A simple blog
HTML Pages with very few CSS
A key to understanding my craziness?
 
I won.
You have accepted to move on.
It wasn't easy, you were one hard challenge.
You kept coming back, asking for more.
At one point i thought that maybe
Only maybe
This time would be different
That someone on this planet
Had found a way to erase me
A way to kill me
But ah!
Humans are so weak
I, one more time, showed my strength
No one can beat me
I control her mind whenever i want to
Well, it's easier when she is in love
Because she pulls her walls down
To let someone else enter
So i join, you know
I join the party
And once i'm in, i ain't getting out
Once i'm in, i ravage anything she builds
I hide in a corner and show up at night, when she is the most vulnerable
I put thoughts in her heads, 
Thoughts that even if she tries to ignore
They still stick
And as soon as you don't act normally
They come out
Hell, no one is the same
So of course this little strategy always work.
I am so intelligent.
 
There was pills once who shut me down
I was very pissed off.
I eventually managed to contour the pills in certain conditions, but it was hard.
I would show up randomly at certain moments
I hired friends to help me
Certain smells, songs, feelings
They all helped me to enter in her castle.
 
I know i shouldn't do this to her
But it makes me laugh to see her fail her life
It makes me laugh to see her trust one more guy
Again and again
That idiot ain't ever gonna learn that i will never leave her?
That i will never let anyone else take control of her brain
Even if it's for her own good
I'm staying.
 
Why didn't she tell you about this place?
Because it's my own castle
It's where no one judges me
Where i can talk without anyone saying i'm crazy
This place
Is the last step
Before you reach ME.
And i don't want you to reach me, oh no
Because my strenght lies in the fact that i stay hidden and only show up
So you can't understand who i am
And how i work
If you have access to this place..
Then..
You know more about me than myself
You know my fears, my past pains
This blog goes back to what, 12 years old?
This is all my life in a book.
All my hopes, dreams, all the experiences that fucked me up badly.
In this blog, i wish to be raped, i show my scars, i am ME.
The ME i can't be with other people.
 
And the key
The key to it is complex
First she has to love you. Love you enough to trigger crisis 
A lot of crisis.
I love crisis, they are my trademark.
Second, you have to abandon her. It could be accepting to move on, for example.
Everyone abandon others
one day or another
So that part of the key is always fulfilled
Third,
She needs to have imagined a life with you. A future life that got crashed in pieces
 
Once these are met, you have access to this place.
 
So once again,
congratz
because you officially escaped
the most fucked up girl on earth
and honnestly,
that means you saved yourself a lot of trouble & pain.